I asked my mom this question that night, "How would you think IF your daughter has a boyfriend?" She replied with a simple answer, by telling me it is not suitable to find my right one at this age. There are many years until I need to get married, some of her friends were dating since teen age, they never consider about others until the day they get married and started to regret.. I was advised to know more people before choosing. Okay, I thought this puppy love is just for fun. We were looking from different angles. I treat love as a game, a romantic game instead of a lifetime accopanier. So then, I decided to have good friends than "boyfriend". Love is a stupid trap I fell into.
Mom told dad about this weird question I asked, they both thought I am having a boyfriend. Dad asked me when we were eating steamboat; I explained that I am just asking, for fun. Nobody would like this kind of me anyway. Dad began his thoughtful "speech" again. He likes to tell me and brother a lot of stories and teach us lessons about life. This time was different; he asked me some questions without explaining,
"What is the definition of love?"
"Before that, what is friendship?"
"If friends are always by your side, but what happens when you are sad and your friend is feeling worst?"
I lost my words in a sudden. I found that I could not answer that, I can not explain what love is and I think I fell in love? Worst of all, I do not even know what is friendship. So who are those talking to me whenever I feel bad? They are not clown aren’t they.. But who are they?
Shit, I am confused with stupid questions again…