Category Archives: Love? Friendship?

俩人

呀。。!

朋友,

有时候就是太怕你依赖了,所以才故意跑掉。

><

Advertisements

Over the rainbow

Look, life is still short and there is no good reason to be sad or down. Shit happens, but it is ok, because these are created by God to make us stronger. Please do not be sad, because it is truly useless. Take ten nice Deep breath instead and cool down, it gives you power and energy so that you will eventually feel better. A small fall does not mean anything because You are still great in the inside. Cheer up, The day will get better tomorrow. =) Shout to me at anytime and I will tell you why. Yes, I promise I will.

________________________________________________________

Woah! Life has gone mad these days. I just quarreled with aunt  about small things, skipped 3 periods of bio lesson in school, did nothing much productive today and made a friend sad by acting fool, (Plus yesterday another one through the internet with the Crazy Fish deal.) One day I gonna go cliff diving or Bungy!

emo

How I wish the next word i could say was I miss you,

but I can’t!

 

Good that you are living well now. =)

Principles

And so I learnt something today. Holding onto a thing that will never leave you out(for example, future) is the best policy in life. Just like what GF and CY said, choosing bread over love. I would love the people around, but not falling into it, because just like how many girls do, in the end it will only hurt yourself.

Relax, life is good. *winks*

_______________________________________________________

Btw, heard a beautiful song shared by a respectable friend on fb.

(yeah, i activated back again, for a while XD)

Try it out!

To have a big heart means never to be disheartened. To have a big heart means to have good wishes constantly for others and to enable others to move forward through this. Even if someone with negative characteristics comes in front, there are no feelings of negativity as there is the power to accept and recognize their specialties. We are able to be beyond confusion and doubt when we have a big heart. We are never caught up with the problems but are very easily able to find a way out. We are able to very effectively and smoothly come out of any negative situation.

~ Brahma Kumaris, Mt Abu

Concealed

She got it deadly right on the red spot of my bumping heart. *lup-dup*

Sometimes, the truths are undeniable especially those that touch one’s feelings.


***

朋友

朋友是用心交的。

我更深切的体会到了。

用心聆听,用心交流,用心相助。

共同谱写精彩的人生章曲。

揭开神秘的蒙纱

    今天的24小時實在特別。或許因為部份迷惑重於得到解答,或許因為我終於放下一些困擾,或許我更懂得惜福了。
 

在此分享一下上午于阿姨到Gurney Plaza购物的成果…… 好看吗?
 
 
rejext shop 蓝色格子上衣-RM39.90
 
 
Next shop 裙子-RM37.50
 
蓝色上衣要配白色裤子或裙子。。
棕色的裙子则要……
呀!好“女人”哦!
 

 
    經過老師的彻底分析,才覺悟到……
    原來我喜歡他,他,還有他是因為他們身上散发着一些我正缺乏的東西,就如:安全感,稳重,遠大的志向,甘願為理想拚命的精神……
或許我也蘊涵着他们正在寻找的东西,所以两方一拍即合。不知不觉中,两方之间存在了一股无形的默契,不断地互相配合。
呀……真爽!
那么就可以说…… 一旦其中一方成功掌握自己缺乏的那一面,他就不会那么需要对方了。(你可以说他/她变心了!!omg..)
难怪老爸不赞成小孩子谈恋爱,毕竟这是双方正不断成长的时期……
是不是?
还不肯定……
 
学习的过程真好玩,
大牛说我对他很重要……wth??;
爸爸告诉我两方必须互相配合来产生多过原本的效率,即他(100%〕+她〔100%〕= X>200%;
老妈劝戒我先认识,才选择;
Pn Chan更豪迈的说:“你喜欢帅哥,就合他们做好朋友吧!但是不要认定终身哦……”
利用这些指南,我与老公在讨论中画出了不少没有中心的图画,一直到老师为我们解开谜底。
嗯……有个样了!
谢谢!
 
假如有更多人会这么想,就不会有那么多人饱受失恋的痛苦、世界上破碎的家庭也会跟着减少,isn’t it?
 
 
 
 
愿大家有个美好的一天!
骗小孩的棒棒糖面包和cheese tart..
哈哈,几可爱!

她发给我的

今天期中考,学校早一点放学,我打了通电话给他。   
:喂,我今天比较早放学,你来载我回家好不好?   
:好,等我五分钟。   
:五分钟?我学校就在你家旁边耶。       
:我总要打扮一下啊。   
:好啦,快一点喔。       
下午2:00,太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血,我站在树荫下挥动着手,虽然没凉到哪里去,但是煽总比不煽好。       
五分钟过了,他还没来,我看看手表,有点不高兴,十分钟过了,他还没到..,该不会出了什么事吧?十五分钟过了,他总算到了。       
:怎么这么慢?   
他一副无所谓的样子说:没啊,看个电视。       
什么?看个电视?你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来?我没有说话,没有拿安全帽,没有上车的瞪着他。   
:对不起。     
 这是他第一次对我说对不起,他是一个很大男人主义,爱面子的男生,所以他从不像女生低头说对不起,我看着他,好吧,似乎面有惭色,我带上安全帽,让他载我回家。      
他总是这样,从来不解释,不争论,不跟我吵架,只跟我说对不起,有些事,不是一句对不起就能解决的,但是他都跟我道歉了,我也就没再追究下去,他说,我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。      
认错需要很大的勇气,但是他从来都没有改进他的错误,对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。在他说第59次对不起时,我流着泪,低下头说:你不要再跟我说对不起了,如果你无法改变,就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会,相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我,说了第60句对不起。      
虽然如此,他还是没有改变,不做任何的解释,我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。   
:你最近怎么了?   
:没有啊。   
:那你为什么心情不好?   
:没有啊。   
:又是没有啊,你除了这句话以外没有别的吗?你知不知道我很担心,很没有安全感,你到底有没有当我是你女朋友?   
:…对不起。   
:我不要听你说对不起。      
我挂了电话,他也没有打来,他根本就不在乎我,也许,我们该结束ㄌ……….这是他说的第99句对不起….。   
从那天开始,我再也没有找过他,他也没有打电话给我,有时候,我会接到一通无声的电话,但是我喂了几声,就挂了,有一种直觉是他,但是他为什么都不说话?一个月之后,我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他,我在教室外东张西望的,就是没有看到他的人影,我随便抓了一个男生来问。   
:同学,请问一下,梦伟今天有来吗?   
:他休学了。   
:啊?为什么?什么时候的事?   
:他已经一个月没来了。   
:…喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来,怎么会呢?   
我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机:您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱,请在嘟一声…。我挂了电话,打到他家,响了好久都没有人接,怎么会?全家移民吗?他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样,没有一点痕迹。   他该不会另结新欢了吧?我开始胡思乱想,我找不到他..,正当我烦恼的时候,电话突然响了,是阿立打来的,他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。      
:喂,你还在干嘛啊?   
:什么?      
:ㄚ伟在医院啦。   
:真的?他怎么了?      
:没有啦,他在○○医院,就是你上次住的那一家。   
:我马上去。      
我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院,在医院看到了他****和妈妈,我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后,就急忙的飞奔而去。      
他躺在床上,眼睛看着我,没有说话,没有起床,一动也不动的。   
:喂,你怎么了?为什么不通知我呢?   

  
他没有回答我,只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。   
:回答我啊,你为什么不说话?   
他眼角留下了一滴泪,身体仿佛用了最大的力气,牵动着嘴角   
:…对不起…。说完,他闭上了眼睛。   
:喂,你别装了好不好,为什么要说对不起,我不要你说对不起啊,你起来啊,回答我啊。   

  
我哭倒在他床边,拉着他的衣服哭喊着:你为什么要说对不起,连说服我的理由都没有?我不会原谅你,你起来啊,你说对不起没有用啊,你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你,我求求你….睁开眼睛啊…。   
这是他说的一百句对不起…一群医生和护士拉开我,开始抢救他,我全身没有力气再站起来,我的头脑一片空白,眼前一片漆黑..。   
他没有离开这个世界,只是我永远都无法触摸到他,但他有时也会在我的梦中出现,告诉我他过的好不好。   

  
他还是陪着我,还是活着,在我心里,他依然如昔,还是会笑着叫我咏熙,叫我老婆,只是..他不再对我说对不起了…。   

  
过了几个月,他妈妈来找我,给了我一个盒子,里面装的,是一百张照片,每一张照片的背面,都写着它让我生气的事情。   
第一次对不起,老婆,我今天不是故意迟到的,我也知道理由很烂,但是我真的不忍心说实话,我在出门前突然心脏绞痛,但是我已经尽量赶了,原谅我好吗?第二次对不起?老婆,我……….   
第三次对不起,老婆,我…   
…………………………..   
……………………….   
……………….   
…………….   
………..   
………   
…..   
第一百次对不起,老婆,我不是狠心要丢下你,只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子,为你带上戒指,你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩,也是我第一个想共度一生的女孩,原谅我不能给你幸福,我会化作天使,守护着你,看着你得到幸福,答应我,别哭,我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子,我爱你。bye 梦伟   

  
我怎么可能不哭,你的要求太严苛了,最后一张照片,是他在医院理拍的,照片上他笑的很灿烂,他变的好瘦,脸色好苍白,但是他还是露出了笑容,拍这第

  
一百张照片。   

  
在他最虚弱罪痛苦的时候,我没有陪着他。   
对不起。   
我抱着他的照片,泪流不止!!

 

 

 

‘ 如果我還一直深愛著你…你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你…你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了…你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了….你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Answers needed..

    I asked my mom this question that night, "How would you think IF your daughter has a boyfriend?" She replied with a simple answer, by telling me it is not suitable to find my right one at this age. There are many years until I need to get married, some of her friends were dating since teen age, they never consider about others until the day they get married and started to regret.. I was advised to know more people before choosing. Okay, I thought this puppy love is just for fun. We were looking from different angles. I treat love as a game, a romantic game instead of a lifetime accopanier. So then, I decided to have good friends than "boyfriend". Love is a stupid trap I fell into.
 
    Mom told dad about this weird question I asked, they both thought I am having a boyfriend. Dad asked me when we were eating steamboat; I explained that I am just asking, for fun. Nobody would like this kind of me anyway. Dad began his thoughtful "speech" again. He likes to tell me and brother a lot of stories and teach us lessons about life. This time was different; he asked me some questions without explaining,
 
"What is the definition of love?"
"Before that, what is friendship?"
and lastly
"If friends are always by your side, but what happens when you are sad and your friend is feeling worst?"
 
    I lost my words in a sudden. I found that I could not answer that, I can not explain what love is and I think I fell in love? Worst of all, I do not even know what is friendship. So who are those talking to me whenever I feel bad? They are not clown aren’t they.. But who are they?
 
    Shit, I am confused with stupid questions again…