Category Archives: The ugly truth

Competition

It kinds of hurt me when my friends who are more slack and insincere in classes are getting better results than I am.

I try to avoid the question all together my with studies because I simply cannot live with the truth.

But it is what it is no matter I like it or not.. Instead of feeling mere jealousy, I shall take this as a motivation to learn from their technique and do better..

 

It feels better after addressing the feeling.

Dancing with fire

I have been dealing with many people, had my anxiety built up, formed my anger, learnt to persuade, managed to gain trust and alter attitude upon mixing with different types of people yet keeping the kind heart within.

There is good and bad sides.

At the age of 24, the biggest fear is still my family members.

I can lose it so swiftly by being influenced. Perhaps it’s time to learn to detach feelings with their negative emotions. It’s not easy growing up in a family who fights against each other other small matters.

It’s funny to say but my rented house with strangers seem more peaceful than this blood related home.

Keep dancing darling, keep dancing.

Evil

My current group leader would lie and put blame onto others just to avoid any fault onto her despite the truth.
its a first time of mine meeting such shameless person who could ignore her own guilt(if she ever have one) and able to do anything onto other.
she is a devil whos facts we have to listen carefully to recognise the lie, and whos pityful expression we ought to ignore everytime we talk to her and whom we have to keep distance to avoid putting blame on no matter how much you have helped her as a friend.

Does she even have a heart?

Well.. from this encounter, i start to believe why cooperate life could be difficult with the competition promoting survival self protection..
a person can behave as bad as he or she wants to be without a sense of guilt..

Beware you kind people.. we have to be smart so that we can continue being kind people.. if not we’ll just be kind dead people, or once kind until betrayed.. you know what i mean.

Hopes

Warning: Book review about killing, genocide and nothing found in our beautiful lies of Instagram, Snapchat and Facebook.

 

I was amazed to have read a book known as Love in a Torn Land by Jean Sasson.

Which the detailed description on first few chapters has left me nightmares and delayed the reading until 1 year later.

It is a tale telling of the real life experience of a Kurdish girl born in Iraq at the time the country was ruled by ruthless Saddam Hussein. The Baathist party led by Saddam hated the Kurds, and executed merciless restrictions, arrest, genocide onto the innocent civilians. For their only crime was their race.

The writer, Jean Sasson is a British and she penned Joanna’s story through interviewing her. Joanna displayed great courage, optimism in good hope for survival, fight and peace. Simultaneously her undying love for family, Kurdistan and her heroic husband.

In a 3 days indulged reading of 400 pages, I found myself vividly living the horrors of Joanna, the teller of her memories whom how her relatives suffered in the prison and torments, how she as a young girl had longed to live the life of Kurdistan freedom fighters known as Pershmega to liberate themselves from the insane genocide. It was similar to the Jewish escape from the Nazis. Just less famous and on smaller scale. Still cruel.

Seeing her brothers and her kind suffered, she then married a freedom fighter of her dream and started the struggle with him. Running for lives from bombing, chemical attacks, surviving on scarce resources, had a miscarriage due to the harsh condition.

To many like her who were on the same land, they  had not been lucky enough to live to tell the tale. I am not going to elaborate on the craziness Baathist has done onto the poor Kurds unless being asked. Such acts are beyond my acceptance on human rights and merely, pain, hunger, disabilities, despair, more pain and eventually death in the most unimaginable ways.

Do not be afraid.

Indeed. This is not a fairy tale of beautiful beaches and sunshine.

It is how insane a person can go in brutalizing the life of another human being, I mean another thousands.

Perhaps just because of the hatred implanted onto another race, and lack of understanding.

The story ended with the refugee sought by Joanna and her husband at England, and a victory against Saddam by the Kurds, in 2007.

But after checking the news I know now that peace for the Kurds did not last long. As stupid Daesh(ISIS) expands its military rage on northen Iraq, forcing the Kurdish fighters-Pershmega no choice but to fight against this multibillion well-resourced terrorists with their limited weapons.

If you did not expected this and do not know how to process this shock, keep reading. (so that you become numb.. haha.)

Perspective:

The first time I experienced such anger or hate onto war was when I heard about the merciless of Japanese when they invaded China and Malaysia. I learnt those at the age of 6, gradually listen as mother told me granny’s childhood, seeing piles of bodies behind the current Gama shopping mall after bombing, and how she used to play with her friends near the Japanese army camp so that the unguarded Japanese soldiers gave them some salt and other little groceries to bring home. How my grandfather starved in the midst of Bukit Kepong, Johor’s forests. In Nanjing, men and women was tired onto wires in hundreds and burnt to death. (Yup, I told you to keep reading.) I am thankful that they survived, yet filled with a constant hate towards the Japanese and wondering why nobody has launched a revenge or at least boycott onto Japanese products, and anime. Then, more stories come to my conscious growing mind.

I watched The Pianist. This is a movie about the time in World War II where a Jewish pianist who had been sent to concentration camps, and his struggle to escape. I moved by the heart touching moments and the art in shooting this movie. At the end of crying and laughing, I was terrified.

At the age of 14, I could not process the image of such cruelty, nor accepting the reality happened that contradicts so much from the beautiful world that I am living in. I told myself, this is absurd!

Two years later brother passed me the Diary of Anne Frank. A diary of a young girl at my age who were hiding in the attic with her family during the Holocaust.

Thanks to my mother, and brother. I now have a good insight and awareness on the poor civilians during war and inequality.

As I grew, I read about the Taliban, Rohingya, Indonesian Chinese Genocide, and then the Middle East. And changed my perspective from negative to better.

Do not be afraid.

There is hope for change.

For we were taught in our culture that a genuinely kind person do not need to be on top or afflicted to forces. Do good and good will come to you.

That is a lie. Do good, and be strong, because evil doesn’t select his victim. One day, you have to be tough enough to defend yourself, you love ones or just merely for justice. In this world, the strongest survive and rule. Whoever rich and powerful sets the rules.

And most important, yet absurdly. Be nice to the bad, for their lack of experience onto affection and kindness shaped their inner demons.

There are reason bad people becomes bad. Superstitious people including my respected forensic lecturer told me it’s born in blood. I ought not to resolve in such hasty conclusion and to identify the cause and uproot it. For if not we will have endless business fighting against them, or sitting comfortably in our serenity reading news about Daesh(ISIS). Feeling lucky it’s not us.

 

Thank you for reading. =)

Why

Not all things happen as peaceful and beautiful the way they can.

I do not know why some people have to yell and be so defensive even on the most general discussion.

Yes, we may not need to agree with each other utterly, but that doesn’t warrant an emotional demonstration of being angry and aggressive.

It just hurts me.
All the time.

逆来顺受

话说填鸭式没什么不好,

我们省得思考,因为课本定了算;

我们无需发问,因与课程提纲无关;

我们不必好奇,反正考题不会出;

我们只管背诵,毕竟这样才有满分。

 

事毕,

有些朋友可以陆续免费获得各类饲料,

有些……

亲爱的父亲,请问您的银行户口还存有多少钱?

 

祝福

STPM战士阿弥陀佛

SPM 考生一切顺利

PMR 放生玩得开心

在籍学生快乐学习

 

YAY!

Be proud of

Barisan Nasional World Records!
Posted by labisman   

Friday, 28 March 2008

THANK YOU BN. For giving us the World’s Healthiest Country. Even as the Elections Commission, your own agents, ooops … I mean er… civil servants, admitted one week before the elections, Malaysia has more than 8,500 voters aged over 100! Dear BN, what’s your secret? Do these super-old voters drink ginseng? Tongkat Ali? Or indelible ink?
 
THANK YOU BN. For giving us the World’s Most Expensive Car Jack. As the Auditor General’s Report released last year showed, you used our money to buy car jacks at RM5,741 each when it costs only RM50 per piece in the hardware store. I understand that these fantastic tools can "jack up" not only cars but even Datuks all the way up to the Fourth Floor of Pak Lah’s Minister Mentor.  
THANK YOU Umno. For the World’s Greatest U-Turn. Last November, when HINDRAF (HINDu Rights Action Force) Indians demonstrated in KL to protest their "marginalisation" by the Umno-controlled government, you condemned them as "ruffians" who would jeopardise social stability, tourism and foreign direct investment (FDI).
But one week after elections, Umno itself demonstrated in Penang, Ipoh and Shah Alam claiming that the new State Governments there will "marginalise" the Malays. And no doubt, they want to "promote" inter-racial harmony, social stability, tourism and FDI with slogans like: "Don’t play fire with Malay rights!"  So dear Umno, why don’t you call yourselves MALRAF – MALay Rights Action Force!
 
THANK YOU Gerakan. For the World’s Smartest Economic Policy. As revealed by blogger (and now MP) Jeff Ooi, former Chief Minister Koh Tsu Koon used taxpayers’ money to give Motorola a RM1 billion (that’s RM1,000 million) contract, so that the American electronics company would announce (just before the elections) a RM350 million investment in Penang to "prove" that the state was still economically "competitive". Wow, what a vote of "confidence" in Penang’s economy!
 
THANK YOU Umno for the World’s Greatest Irony. Last November, you accused HINDRAF of causing losses to businesses and traffic jams (when it was actually the massive police roadblocks/crackdown that caused the jams/chaos). You said such protests were "not our culture" and a "threat to national security" worthy of ISA detentions.
But now Umno’s MALRAF has shown that such protests are indeed part of Malaysian, or at least, Malay culture. And the best part was that they proved we could have peaceful demonstrations – as long as the police behave professionally. In other words, Umno’s demonstrations have truly "demonstrated" that 50 year old Malaysia is mature enough to allow people to "let off steam" by shouting and holding banners for an hour or two without incurring National Apocalypse.
And then after all that shouting and sweating, habis cerita! We Malaysians (who are so bored that we stop our cars to look at road accidents) finally get some street entertainment and after that all the crowds go for their teh tarik and roti canai. Hey, that’s good business for the mamak shops you know!
But if you ask me, the true MALRAF are the many Malays who protested against BN policies through their votes, especially in Kedah, Kelantan, Penang, Perak, Selangor and KL. Just as the majority of Chinese did an electoral CHINRAF.
So what shall we call those Umno demonstrators? How about MONEYRAF? A MONEY Rights Action Force to demand their "Malay rights" privileges to "buta gaji" contracts, projects, AP’s and share allocations so that they (and their Mak Datin wives) can continue to buy their BMW’s (and "ori-punya" Gucci handbags) while the real makciks struggle to make a living selling mee goreng at the roadside. 
 
THANK YOU Selangor BN, for being the World’s Most Environment-Friendly Government. DAP Kampung Tunku State Assemblyman, Lau Weng San, has lodged a police report over alleged destruction of documents by the previous Selangor State Government. Pictures have appeared on the internet of files strewn all over office floors.
Perhaps they were shredding all that paper to recycle into tissue paper? To wipe away the s**t before it hits the fan when the new Menteri Besar takes over? Ah, what fragrant records they shall leave behind…. how eco-friendly of them!
 
THANK YOU MCA. For giving us the World’s Best "Buy One Free One!" Special Offer. This means the voters can Buy Opposition and Still Get Free BN Service!
Despite Pak Lah threatening the Chinese that they would "lose representation" in the government if they voted for the Opposition, the MCA still got their four Minister’s posts in Pak Lah’s new Cabinet. Of course, these Minister-ships have little real power anyway.
For example, even though the MCA got a massive "mandate" in the 2004 elections, the MCA "Minister of Housing and Local Government" (H&LG) never had power over housing and local government. Why? Because these matters are actually (in the Constitution, no less) under the jurisdiction of State Governments! The Minister of H&LG could not appoint Majlis Perbandaran Councillors or give approvals for housing projects. In fact, he himself once complained that Local Councils were not implementing his proposals for more CCTV’s, street barriers and well-lighted pavements under the "Safe City Concept".
As MCA president Datuk Seri Ong Ka Ting said himself on March 9, the party "accepted and respected the people’s decision" and would "continue to fight" for the rights of the community and country. As The Star reported, he also urged MCA candidates with good track records "not to be affected" by their defeat and to "carry on serving" the community. One example is the hardworking MP Lee Hwa Beng, who despite being defeated by the young man who filmed the VK Lingam video, has sportingly agreed: "I will keep my service centre open." Well done sir.
In other words, the people get the BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. We get more of an Opposition voice in Parliament and we still get the BN reps to help us with complaints of blocked longkangs, blinking street-lights and bloody road potholes. Well, how else can they hope to win back our votes in 2013?
BUT what if the new State Governments transform the Majlis Perbandaran’s to become more efficient? To do the bloody blinking jobs they were paid to do in the first place? What will happen to the MCA’s Majlis Perbandaran Liaison Officer and Petition Writer roles? Oh oh… looks like the MCA reps have to urgently reinvent and rebrand themselves.
 
THANK YOU Elections Commission (EC). For giving Malaysia the World’s Most Advanced Technology. Before this, we’ve only seen "tele-portation" on Star Trek – you know, like when Captain Kirk or Dr. Spock says "beam me up" and they are instantly "tele-transported" in a sort of large laser beam from some strange planet back to the mother spaceship.
But BERSIH, the elections reform group, says that you, the EC, have managed to transfer voters (possibly thousands) from Selangor to places like Kelantan and Terengganu without even their knowledge. How many of these people could actually drive five to eight hours all the way there to vote? PAS claims that at least 200 buses of "phantom voters" were brought into Terengganu and its President, Hadi Awang says police "escorted them like VIP’s".
No wonder the cartoonist Zunar calls you, the EC, a "component party" of the Barisan Nasional. Come on… don’t so like dat-lah. I mean, congratulations on such marvellous technology and all that. But dear EC, at least you should have the basic courtesy to "tele-transport" voters only after they say "beam me up". Not before, OK?
What’s next EC? Al Jazeera TV reported on March 9 that you could stuff 560 "registered voters" into one street of small terrace houses in Cheras, Selangor. You even had the sense of humour to stuff 26 of them into the same 1,400 sq ft house (perhaps to share the bathroom?) as the brother of Jenice Lee (now elected as DAP State Assemblywoman for Teratai, Selangor).
Now, we all know that great progress is being made in "data compression" technology. For example, we used to need two or three pieces of VCD’s for one movie whereas nowadays, you can stuff five or even more movies into just one piece of DVD. So… for 2013, I am looking forward to the EC’s "best-punya" world-class technology – to stuff 30 "registered voters" into the dog kennel behind my house!
 
THANK YOU MIC. For the World’s Best SMS jokes! Allow me to jazz them up.
"Hi. My friend is looking for a job. Construction background. His education not that strong. But can "kau tim" things. Any buildings collapse, he will say Act of God. He was with Malaysian Govt past 30 years. Last job: Works Minister. His name is Samy Vellu. Please help him to get at least toll gate collector job. Thanks."
 
And you probably also heard the "latest news" that Samy Vellu is now a film producer in Bolehwood? His first movie will be Kuch Kuch Kalah Hai starring Mydin Khan, Sharizat Rai, Kayveas Kapoor, Koh Tsu Khan and Khir Tempe Blachan. Special guest appearances by Khairy Kumar and Bobby Badawi. 
 
And lastly, there was this: Breaking news! Samy is very angry and will leave MIC to form a new political party for Indians called Parti Untuk Kaum India MAlaysia – PUKIMA. 


Enjoyed reading?

I guess many have seen it before..

IT’s an old mail I found in my inbox.

From yik ping! XD

Crap..

    After talking for about an hour with mom, I’ve learned more.. Mom is a nice person to talk to, I felt free to crap whatever I feel like. Oh well, she was the one who did the most talking actually.. ^^

We started from pollitics to business, economics, good personalities and lastly phisology. Pollitic was one of the main topic. I couldn’t stand laughing when she told me about these "jokes".

    Mom told me about those she read in the newspaper, which is a list of 7 big projects the goverment planned, paid and end up with nothing.. How sad it is to watch these corruptions happening in our country.. We are still able to survive until now is because of our rich land, the petroleum, and things given by nature. Because of this, they keep on corrupt and corrupting.. thinking about their own profits by pushing the country towards the end. Umno cancelled 2nd penang bridge’s plan, and sekats Penang financial amounts b’cause Penang’s Gov is DAP. What a smart act. I’ll try to post proves for these facts next time, it’s simply too much!

    Having heard that Mr. Anwar may be domitating the politics, how do you think about this? Obviously he has a "supporter" behind who solves all the financial problems. If he really suceeds, what will happen to our country? We can get some hints in form 2 sejarah.. yes, limited by the stronger forces.. Not you, neither me, nor the Malays.. The force who is holding contract with Mr A.. Get me? I believe that there must be a way to stop this country from destroying. It’s just that I don’t know how… YEt.

 

   Besides, mom brought me something as she just came back from Singapore this evening too, and they are…

  

K, A bread-pizza and a Donut..           

 and..                  

 

2 packets of 3 in 1 milo n coffee. Fine..

 

This is what that started our business topic.

Union YE products =)

 

Oh ya, next week got exam hor…

then why I’m still here?

Thanks for reading!

Red Pill Vid

School work is just so heavy, for you and me. Let’s watch Matrix while taking a short break online.
Do ignore this if you feel it insulting or something. I am looking from the angle of third party here.
Neither pencadang, nor pembangkang. =)
 
Malaysians, Choose the Red Pill 

Meanwhile, this is what I find in the details. We shall have a simple Reading.. Just a simple one, k?

"Taken from the movie The Matrix, this scene shows Morpheus asking Neo to choose between the red and blue pills.
Likewise, Malaysians, must choose. To stay in ignorant bliss, or to uncover the truth amid the lies and deceit.
Find out about the corruption practices which have become the norm in Malaysia. Find out if your leaders are making YOUR life better or making THEIR life easier with your money.
Find out if they are flushing this country down the drain. Find out how much federal reserves we have. Find out how corrupt and dirty our leaders are. Don’t stop at the ministers, find out even till the highest man, the PM.
I’m only asking you to seek the truth
."   – A random Youtube User

A random Overseas Student’s voice

我、华人、台湾、马来西亚
颜少君

我是马来西亚侨生。刚开学时,常有同学问道:“阿,你是侨生!从马来西亚来的吗?那么,你是‘马来人’吧!”
天啊,我成了马来人啦!

我是华人。我也是马来西亚人。在马来西亚,我会说:“我是华人。”人们就能了解我的祖先是舆清末时期从遥远的中国,飘洋过海到马来西亚这片土地上,与他的祖先一起开拓了现在的马来西亚的。在国外,我会说:“我是马来西亚人。”外国朋友就会知道我来自亚欧大陆最南端的国家,而那里是一个天然资源丰富、极少天灾,且不同民族与宗教信仰的人民共荣共存和谐相处的小国。但是,在台湾,诺有人问我是什么人--“嗯
……我是侨生,来自马来西亚。 ”我不会很坦然的说自己是马来西亚公民(当然,我将来也许会入籍中华民国--也许这就是侨教政策的终级目标),我害怕受到排斥或‘特别优待’。那么,我为什么还要到台湾来念书呢?也就是这样,我对马来西亚可说是既爱又恨……

身为马来西亚华人,我自认是幸运的。从某个角度来看,我更觉得马来西亚华人是全世界几十亿炎黄子孙中最幸福的一群。马来西亚气候暖和多雨、四季如夏,拥有丰富的矿藏、珍贵的热带雨林等天然资源,又位处台风、地震、火山带外,适合人们居住、进行各类经济活动,且免于严重自然灾害引来的横祸。虽然马来西亚不如香港、台湾、新加坡繁荣进步,但土地与天然资源充足,据潜力,且能已发达国家为借鉴,免去过度城市化、过度污染、过度拥挤等的问题。比起印尼、泰国、菲律宾等国,马来西亚的政治与经济较稳定,各族、各宗教之间和谐共处、相处融洽,这更令许?br> h国家认为不可思议.同时,虽然欧美华裔和马来西亚华人一样避免了接受同化却还是受歧视、排斥,甚至迫害的窘境(如印尼),确只有马来西亚华人才较健全、完整的保存了中华文化的传承环境,能较好地学习与宏扬中华文化。当然,中国是中华文化的文民发祥地,但中国一般人民似乎三餐温饱都成问题,实在无法很好的从事文化活动吧!

马来西亚的华人能有今天的成果,得来不易。但,虽说较好,却也有许多不为外人所知的隐忧。
马来西亚友各源流的小学。所谓各源流小学,是让各族子弟以各自的母语来学习基本的启蒙与基础科目及读、写、算能力,并学习马来西亚国语--马来语,及世界语言-英语的。但是,升上了中学(官方全津贴的),各族语文(除了马来语)都沦为一门节数少又不受重视的语文课(在往后的省学文凭中非常不重要),其他科目的教学媒介语都一律改为马来语。诺要继续受中文媒介的中学教育,就必须如我这样进入华人社群掏腰包民办的独立中学。承办这些中学是马来西亚华社一大负担,但这些热爱中华文化的华人(不幸的,也不是大多数)本着“在穷不能穷教育”的理念
出钱出力把学校一年又一年的办了下来。由于政府不再让我们创办新的独立中学,全马来西亚只有六十三间独立中学,而其中只有十来间尚面对师资、校舍等软硬体设备不足,但还算较具规模的。更可恶的是,马来西亚的教育法令条文中一直含有数项授权于当权者,让他们在‘时机成熟’时关闭中文独立中学,并将各源流小学改制为类似国中(公立)的马来文媒介小学。企图从而‘同化’非马来族。
马来西亚的华文教育课题牵涉到政治、历史、现实与种族等问题,错综复杂。许多华人基于经济(无法缴付独立中学的不个人需负担的部分学费)与现实(政府的公立大学不承认独立中学的学术资格)而将孩子送到国中。此外,独立中学同学毕业后升学率明显比国中高,而其中不少选择了台湾(学费低廉、中文媒介、课系多、机会多)。但是,马来西亚政府却不承认台湾大学各科系(除了指定数间医学院的医、药学系)的文凭。最近发生了马来西亚侨生逾期逗留台湾,遭遣送回国的事件,就是回国难谋生所造成的。

政府不承认独中统考文凭(马来西亚全国独中联办,类似台湾联考,多数马来西亚侨生来台依据),本来就一直为华人所不满。近来政府静开放国立大学予印尼、菲律宾、泰国等东南亚国家高中文凭持有者,却还是不承认能力备受国外知名大专院校承认、肯定的国内民办华文独中毕业生。不禁让人愤慨。而且,近二十年来政府开放让各类应私立英文媒介(营利)的大专院校如雨后春笋般成立,却依旧将华社已经申请创办了三、四十年的中文媒介(非营利)独立大学拒于门外。又再气煞华社。更甚的事,到欧、美、澳、印度等各个国家去修读大学课程的同学回国后资格都受到
官方承认,仅有留台的大学生资历不受认同。虽然留台生尚能在私人机构服务,但各界为了避免与官方打交道时的麻烦,留台生的机会还是有限的。而且,部分幸运的在私人界受到了认同与肯定的学长姐,在部分毕业于国内外其他受承认大专学府的官员、上司面前,竟被视为只有小学学历(应为中学就读独立中学,亦不受承认)。他们不曾想过他们在大学时有些亦是以马来文为媒介念英文原文教科书(因为马来西亚语并不发达,各类最新资讯
的翻译尚远慢于台湾、日本、韩国等地,自然不可能拥有马来文教科书),与我们以中文媒介念英文原文课本没什么差别呀!真是令留台、旅台的我们心寒!

在很大程度上,我认为小、中学的通才教育阶段,以母语为学习工具不但事半功倍,母语在各领域的被运用更是所属文化的一种发展与推广,使语文跟上时代的脉动、不为淘汰,避免沦为只能用于日常生活的二等语言、甚至最后遭到遗弃。所以,马来西亚华社坚持拥有中文中学、甚至大学的态度,是绝对必要的。
前面提到过,在马来西亚曾经有、现在也有一些势力在寻觅机会把其他各族同化为占人口70~80%的马来族。但是,从印尼华裔接受近乎彻底的同化后(不能使用中文,只能拥有回教徒姓名)尚被憎恨、迫害,到现在独裁政权结束、重新放宽禁令后让中文再度拥有空间,可以得知--种族同化是不可行的。若种族间存在经济能力、教育水平等的明显差异(此现象普遍发生于世界各地),应通过一些自我提升、部分分配、促进互助等的政策来调和、淡化、进而达到了解与谅解。而不是以同化来企图掩盖。
中华文化五千年,放弃这门博大精深的文化,我想绝对是‘那些’华人的损失。

话说回来,我在这里又为什么不以自身是侨生‘为荣’呢?先让我告诉你一个小秘密:近几年的新普医生作家,台大医毕业的欧阳林可是我中学的同校学长。我高中的许多老师就是他的老师,而我更知道他的原名喔!可奇怪的是,我曾向几位新同学提起过,同学们都不相信我,他们从来都不知道欧阳林是马来西亚人。也许是我碰到的同学不熟悉他,也许是他不曾在书中透露过。我只看过一、二本他的著作,who knows ?
我之所以通常不‘坦然相告’(尤其是面对‘生人’时),也许是自己‘占了便宜’而自觉惭愧吧。
有些民众,甚至是校内的师长、长官等,因侨生是凭特殊身分以较平庸的能力夺走了本地生(也许他们的亲戚、儿女就在其中)的机会而很自然地不能做到一视同仁。我不否认我们是特殊的,我们的课业能力也一般较差,但我认为大家(尤其是教育工作者)应该看到文化背景、生活经历稍异的同学能为台湾大学塑造一个多元的环境。毕竟,以中文为教学媒介,很难吸引到非华裔的外籍学生,因而不能创造一个校园小联合国,让各地文化与思想交流、激荡。
与同学们相处了个把月,同寝的室友也有三个本地生,我觉得本地生的课业能力一般较强,但课外知识的涉猎与生活体验一般也较贫乏。尤其是医学系的所谓的高材生同学,一般上更让我觉得他们联考前三年的高中生活乏味异常,甚至被迫暂时完全放弃个人嗜好与兴趣,而其他系的同学则还好(也许就因为没有牺牲才考不进‘较好的学系’吧)。我觉得蛮悲哀的。在马来西亚就对台湾联考战况之激烈时有所闻,新闻报导也年年都有‘全家共赴沙场’‘联考魔鬼温书营系头带猛K书’‘考前个地庙宇香火大盛’等实况报导。当然,这种情况是据有华人的民族性(马来西亚华人
社会也普遍较国内其他民族注重‘科举’)与台湾社会与文化背景的。
两年前曾在马来西亚参加过中科院院长李远哲博士的演讲,他就重点提到了台湾教育改革的迫切性与他的计划。而近日台湾教育部宣布的‘改制联考’似乎代表了教改的进行。但是,我个人觉得社会心态改造与全民思想的教育才是重点,而且此次的改革是乎不够全面,希望有关当局多多加油喔。当然,我只是个略知一二的新鲜人,若我完全错误的诠释情况,还请见谅。
总而言之,我虽然没有许多本地生所有的,却也自认拥有一些本地生所没有的。虽然我不自卑,还是低调一点,明哲保身。希望自己继续幸运地不会遭到‘特殊待遇’。

从高中升到了大学,离开了家庭的怀抱、父母的呵护,我到了这儿。我庆幸自己出身在马来西亚--一个华人能立足、安居的国度。我以自己是中华文化的传承者为荣。我也为自己能进入高医而自豪。我希望马来西亚的华人及华文教育能在马来西亚获得更普遍的肯定,若我的专长能有用武之地,我想我会回到马来西亚。我是自己为马来西亚华人,并以此为傲。至少,我免去了许多各地的华人、华裔的困扰--到底自己是中国人、台湾人、某某华裔、某某华侨、中华人民共国国民、中华民国国民,还是一个无主的中华游魂。


We are born on this land, this is our country.
Where on earth we can call HOME besides Malaysia?
This is the place we should be living together and treated equally..
Some of us bowed because we think that we are not the locals of this land.. But it is actually not. The Malays think so because when their elders came here they didn’t see Chinese on the other side of the land. Chineses have been starting their life since before Malays do. If they want to talk about origin, they can ask Chinese to go back to China, Indian to India and themselves will have to leave and go back to Indonesia or other places too. It is obvious that what we call Bahasa Melayu is familiar with Indonesian language, right?
 
I am born to be a Malaysian and I will always be. Forget about the hak istimewa.